For some reason, lately, I've been hating school.
My mom or someone will ask me how well my day went and I'll say "Nothing spectacular happened..." or "It wasn't good... it wasn't bad."
I just can't stand it.
I'm not getting bad grades. Sometimes though, I feel bored, tired, or just annoyed with the system.
I hate getting up in the morning for it. BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEP and I hit the alarm off. Recently, the first thought that pops in my head is something like "I have to go to school again? Why can't we have a freaking snow day already? I hate school..." and so on and so forth.
I wonder if this is how every high schooler feels now. Because I've been feeling this way for a bit already. And by the time my Freshmen year was over, I knew that I loathed the high school experience. I wasn't beat up or anything. Things just aren't fair, and I don't get it.
Speakin' of fair/unfair. In drama, the other day, I tried out for a role in the class play. I wanted to be this girl named Bonnie because she later, along with a few other characters, becomes a superhero. I was very excited at the idea of rockin' out the hero look. We got to see who made which part today. And I didn't get it. I'm an extra. They play cheerleaders, disco dancers, and a few other parts. I'm not trying to be mad for not getting the part. But I think I might be. I know it's life and we don't always get what we want, but... it just makes me a little sad. The teacher said to the class today that, "... the roles were hard to choose. Everyone did great." Then she added the fact that "In some instances, it was so hard that we had to decide between two people... the senior then got the role. So seniority did factor in." I don't really see how that's fair. I mean, I sort of get the fact that seniors won't be here next year, so their only chance. But, maybe if you think about it, if they wanted a main role, they should have taken drama in a year eariler. It's their choice to take it so late. They had a chance to try out for a role and get it because they are good... not because they only have one chance left. I would also say now that people only get one chance to be in drama, so everything should be fair. But this is my second time around. I didn't fail last time, I just wanted to do it again. I like acting. So maybe... just maybe... I can take into account that I didn't lose the part because I suck at life. I can think I just lost the part because life ain't fair. Hmm. It just makes me feel better.
On a good, un-ranty note, last week in French we got to watch Moulin Rouge. I was so pumped about it. Madame (our teacher) kept pausing it, to take notes about it. But I was aiight, because it was fun to learn details about the night club and dancers that I didn't know.
For some reason, I feel a sense of "Yes, this sounds like a real post! None of those crappy posts that I post that just say 'Yeah. I hate school," because I actually explained my feelings. Feelings, ahhh, yes!
Oh, I watched High School Musical for the first time this weekend. (I know, where have I beeeeeen?) I liked it, and I bought the soundtrack. ;D
Catch ya later,
I shall apoligize now if indeed my opinions offend you at all. I try not to. I try to keep an open mind, ya know?
I love ya.
...Well speakin' of drama... The last one there didn't make me feel so swell.
In 2007, gc4eva_89
Spend more time with my icons.
Find a better food.
Pay for my animals on time.
Tell my family about scrubs.
Start a water fund.
Give up acting.